Tag Archive | "multiple sclerosis"

Feeling Powerless Is A Choice

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

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Powerless!  Do you ever tap into that “emotional tar pit?”  If so, what do you do with it? One week ago I felt powerless to walk 12’ to confront a stranger.  That experience coughed up childhood memories of feeling powerless.  From them, I developed coping skills (albeit not always healthy ones) to drag myself out [...]

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Stranger Dilemma: Assist or Report

Friday, September 17, 2010

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Jingle, jangle goes the alarm clock. It’s 6:00 a.m. on trash pick-up day in a sleepy suburb of San Diego. I roust my son out of bed to take the cans to the curb, gather the last of the garbage and head out to the trash bins around the corner of the house. There is [...]

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As Your Servant

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

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“I was only the servant of my country and had I, at any moment, failed to express her unflinching resolve to fight and conquer, I should at once have been rightly cast aside. ” Winston Churchill Since the age of five, he knew he would be a doctor.  I was there when he opened his [...]

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Running on Empty

Saturday, July 31, 2010

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Early morning appointments can interrupt a daily routine.  When you spill coffee down the front of your shirt and have to do a wardrobe change, it merely adds to the pressure of hitting the appointment on time. Having fallen prey to this problem, I hopped into my car and almost flew to the San Diego [...]

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You Were My Legs

Friday, May 14, 2010

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Sailing, rollerblading, hiking, Taekwondo and running were part of the routine.    It was the 90’s.  Our lives were consumed with raising children, working, studying and playing.  Health was taken for granted.  I always joked that we’d have a rollerblading party when I turned 90. Fast forward to July of 2005.  A visit to the neurologist’s office confirmed what [...]

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Multiple Sclerosis – Living Above The Fear

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

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It was Saturday night and I had walked the equivalent of several miles that day.  My brother dropped me off at Aladdin Café and went to park his car.  When my right foot hit the curb the left one did not respond and I fell flat on my face.  How humiliating! Having lived with multiple [...]

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